i'm here

I know its been a while since I've blogged. I guess things have been busy around here.
I love September and the beginning of fall. I love back to school and stationary (even though I am not in school or have kids in school- I love paper and pens in the stores and new packages of felts! ahhh). It's been exceptional weather here in town even though it is typically getting chilly this time of year. The outdoor pools were still open and we have been going on lots of walks and bike rides trying to enjoy the last bit of heat and sunshine.
I was gone for the weekend to the YMCA annual Fit Retreat. It was my third year going and it is always so intense! 4 2-hour sessions. 3 of mine were super high intense step, kickboxing and a bootcamp. The water I took was very easy as there is no pool so she could only show us the moves and practice on land. Its always inspirational and always tiring. All us instructors dance the night away after all that because obviously we haven't moved and exercised enough. I am always happy to come home and see my family on Sunday. When Brian and Kennedy came to pick me up, they beat us to the Y and were waiting on the bench in their Sunday clothes. Kennedy all cute and sweet looking and my hubby looking great in his suit. Loved it! I was super excited to see them both!

Yesterday was a very LONG, interesting day. Kennedy stared crying just as I pulled into the drive way from the gym and as I checked her out, she kept holding her nose and saying "ow, nose". I realized she hadn't scratched her nose with her nail, but she stuck something up it! I thought it was the back of an earring. I quickly strapped her back in to the carseat and went to her pediatrician. As it turned out, he couldn't get it out and actually pushed it up more. He sent us to the Stollery Children's Hospital. Anyway, it was a LONG day of waiting rooms and doctor after doctor looking up her nose. Every time, I had to pin her down as she screamed and screamed. SHe had to get x-rays and they were sure that they were going to have to put her under with anesthetics to get it out but finally, at 6pm one doctor got it out with some fancy tools and Kennedy all rolled up like a sausage in a blanket being held down by 2 nurses. It was a VERY emotional day for her and I as it was just SO FREAKING HARD to see my little girl scream for me and knowing that I couldn't help her and had to put her through that kind of agony. She is fine now, just traumatized I am sure, by doctors and hospitals.

Now, today is catch up. After yesterday and being gone all weekend, I am doing laundry, playing with Kennedy, cleaning the house, getting groceries and getting things back to order. I've decided to make a schedule for Kennedy and I for our days at home. We are going to have singing time and learning time to practice colors and animals and things. We'll have movie(Dora) time and mommy time. I'm looking forward to some order and feeling accomplished in my day at home. Being a stay at home mom is hard for me in the fact that I feel like I don't accomplish enough. I see the moms with 3, 4, or 5+ kids getting kids to school and soccer and piano or whatever and feel like less compared to them because we don't have things like that going on. I'm tired of feeling bad and judged for having one child. You have no idea- having one may even be harder than more because there is no one to play with. Just mommy around. I have no idea, as I only have one, but I enjoy life like this right now. I am enjoying having one little girl and I am totally going to take advantage of that and spend my time playing and teaching her whatever I can.

Anyway....I guess this turned into a long post. Maybe procrastinating to back to cleaning!!!
nope, its singing time soon, then it will be time to start dinner!

I'll be back later!