This has been a very tough week for me. I got layed off. Yep. So i was sick Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday. When i got home from the doctor on Wednesday, there was a message on my machine to call my boss at work. I figured she just wanted to see if I was really sick and tell me that i needed a note. Well, no. Due to corporate restructuring, my position was being eliminated as of February 15. Not good news. I had 5 months before I went on mat leave. I was absolutely devasted. I have been there for 1 1/2 months shy of one year. I loved my job. I loved the people I worked with. THey were my friends. My boss was like my mentor. SHe helped me with so much. This came as a complete shock. Well, I was determined to go in there with my head held high and finish my last 2 weeks with dignity. Thursday, let me tell you, was in one word....terrible. Of course I wasn't by usually chipper happy self, I was angry. I went to my Mom's for lunch to cry some more. I felt so badly treated. People were ignoring me, avoiding me and basically acting like I was invisible. Not fun. I really didn't want to finish out these 2 weeks. Turns out, I didn't need to. At about 5 minutes to 5 o'clock, my boss came in my office and said she didn't expect me to react this way. That everyone feels awkward around me and I was being intolerable to work with. SHe said she still liked me as a person, but couldn't deal with me for the duration. So, instead, she wanted me to pack up all my stuff that day and she would just pay me for the week, because by law she had to. She said I shouldn't be taking this so personal, that I wasn't the only one who got let go. Turns out, that horrible day was my last day. What a way to leave. I was trying so hard not to cry as i packed up my office. Then I was out. I didn't get to say goodbye to all my collegues, all the people I have seen everyday for a year, and have gotten close to. I was out, and then she told me, if i changed my mind, that i could call her to talk to her. change my mind?!?! Change my mind about wanting to stay...my attitude...how I was acting? I don't understand. She said that she had nothing bad to say against me. I can't believe I am done there. what a shock. That was pretty rough.
However, I am over it. Everything happens for a reason, I am looking on the bright side. Now I have time to get ready for the baby, look for a new place to live, maybe get a part time job, or whatever. I will be ok. Everything will work out.
2 comments:
Oh, that is so sad! It would have been sad to say goodbye in the first place, but to have them act that way is just rough! So sorry. Hope things look brighter soon. :)
that totally sucks. I knew you loved that job. too bad it ended like that! come out and play with me anytime!
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